Friday, June 13, 2014

Good Advice That Was Bad



Advice is something that has been dished out to me quite often
                Far more often than I would like…
                                Mostly because a lot of it is useless to me…

Today, however, I was given some advice that made me quite mad.

Like super mad
Like wanting to punch someone in the face mad

At the time, I wasn’t super sure why I was that angered by the advice

Searching for the answer, actually gained me quite a lot of helpful insight.

The non-helpful part being that I felt utterly belittled
Being talked down to angers me greatly
(which is honestly something that I already knew)

The helpful part was learning that I knew what I didn’t want
I was given great advice that was a smart choice
                Everything about it really added up greatly
                                But felt utterly wrong for me

I wanted nothing to do with that track in life
It wasn’t a career path I was remotely interested in,
But mostly, it felt like it would go against the path I saw myself taking.

My life needs equal amounts of fun and creativity balanced against discipline and schedules.

The advised life had nothing to do about fun
It was all work and no play

That is not the life for me.

I want my life to be equal parts fun and hard work.

So while the advice was for a smart choice 
It was not the smart choice for me.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Unnoticed and Negative

Unnoticed. That is how I have spent most of my life. The trouble has always been that I've been standing next to someone who is super awesome, and they attract attention much easier and quicker than I do.
(This might be why I enjoy being creative; I don't feel like I'm competing with other people.)

But something crazy happened for me recently. It is probably not as big of a thing as I am making it out to be, but it struck a chord deep within my.

On June 5, 2014 at 6:03 PM I tweeted this: (Side note: totally just noticed I spelled excited wrong....the shame!)

The next day at work, I noticed my phone had a notification. And it was NATURE BOX FAVORITING MY TWEET!!! I was just so shocked; I was a no one on their radar and yet there they were favoriting my tweet.

Honestly, it began a thought in my brain: putting myself out there was the right idea. So, I went ahead and put myself out there again, because I was just so excited:

And then another favorite happened from Nature Box! I had to thank them and say that they were making me feel special with a tweet. That's when my Negative Nancy came to burst my bubble...maybe they just favorite all the tweets sent to them... But Nature Box to the rescue:

It felt like a great pick me up that I didn't even know that I needed. I felt validated in the future potential of me possibly being able to stand out, attract attention, and become noticed (and use that to help other people feel better about themselves!).

While I still have lots to learn and a lot of growing to do, I am beginning to see that I can take any given situation and see it as positive or negative. So, here's to hopefully viewing things as positive...and ignoring that Negative Nancy that seems to speak up all too often in my life.

Seriously though, fuck you Negative Nancy...stupid bitch...